Melanie & Wallace: We have been asked about how we met, and since we are asking you to share your story, we felt it was important for us to get things started.
Wallace: One of the main reasons why I had developed a dislike for dating sites, was that it was clear to me that my honesty in talking about my disability and being forthcoming about it, had a negative impact on the replies I received. Early on in my post injury dating life, I learned, through trial and error, that it is best to be as honest as possible. I would much rather receive fewer responses with people knowing the truth, as opposed to increasing the interest by not being transparent. It only delays the inevitable. However, when I first started dating after sustaining my SCI 32 years ago, I was much more hesitant to talk about such things like how my bladder and bowels work, where my level of sensation is, what muscles I can control, spasms etc. I was worried that sharing such information would just scare people off and not give them a chance to really get to know me before they could get freaked out by any aspect of my SCI. In my early dating experiences with this mindset, I realized that I was investing myself and my emotions in another person while carrying the weight of my truth. In retrospect, it was damaging and unfair to myself and to the other person. There is weight in the saying “truth is the best policy”. After some heartbreak, I realized that I wanted someone who wanted me for all that I am right from the start. What really helped me was talking to peers and listening to their stories of successful relationships. In time they led me to realize that it is more than possible to find a partner who loves me for all that I am. It was with this confidence that I moved forward. I have had significant relationships and flings that were all started with the truth being on the table. My partners noted that part of their attraction to me was my honesty and confidence. The relationships did not stand the test of time, but they did not end because of my SCI. The truth is, finding a long-lasting functional relationship is not an easy task for anyone.
Melanie & Wallace: That brings us to how we met. We were both at a point where we were happy and satisfied with our lives as single parents of adult children. Although we both wanted to find our “partner in crime” we did not want a relationship for the sake of having a relationship. We were ready to lay it all on the table. Despite both of us having reservations and a poor history of online dating sites, we chose to give it one last kick at the can. Both of us had filled out our profiles with great care and detail. It is a very vulnerable feeling to put yourself out there like that, but we both felt openness and honesty were paramount. We cannot stress enough that trial and ERROR is really the only way to figure out what works best for you with regards to communicating. You have to accept that there could be a lot of no’s before you get to a yes, and not all yes’s will work out in the long term.
Wallace: When fillings out my profile, my SCI was not hidden, but it was not the focal point. All the facts were there in plain language, however I focused on my accomplishments and abilities. My SCI does not define me, but it is a part of who I am.
Melanie: When I read Wallace’s profile I was attracted to his accomplishments and interests (AND... I thought he was extremely attractive). His education, dedication to social work and justice was very appealing to me. We had many common interests and it seemed as though we spoke the same language. Knowing that he had an SCI and lived his life fully told me that he was a person who thrives in the face of adversity, and that is what I was looking for. I found all aspects of him to be attractive. I am convinced that this is in part due to the work I did on my own. Knowing who I am and what I want. I had questions about his SCI, but it was not the focal point for me. Very quickly we determined that we would talk on the phone and skip messaging through the site as it was limiting and slow. Our first conversation was over 3 hours long. We met in person within a few weeks. During our long phone conversations, Wallace was very candid about the way his body works. We got into even more detail after we met. I found everything to be so interesting. None of what he talked about made him less attractive, it just helped me to understand him more fully. It was not just him laying everything on the table, I did too. We did not hold back on expressing what we wanted or did not want. We both wanted to know ASAP if there were any deal breakers. Life is too short so we opened up very quickly and put in motion how we would communicate with one another moving forward.
Wallace: Although what I am sharing is my personal experience with dating and honesty, I have learned over the past 32 years through sharing with peers that my experience is most common. Not sharing truths is the deal breaker for me.